Chaoticxcaulfield's Journals

Hmm, 2009?

Last post was kinda weird, and awkward. Disregard it, please. :)

The last half of 2008 and thus far in 2009 has been kind of amazing and crazy. I got my life going, ya know? I got some friends and decided what I'd like to be. I even got a best friend, which is rad. I met this boy that was the cutest little thing I'd ever seen in my life, and about a month ago lost him. I'm happy I met him, he makes me smile to this day. My other grandma died, sad yes. I'm getting ready to move to NAshville. Rofl, I got my weight down. ^-^ I'm not obsessed with it either, I'm just obsessed with staying healthy ya know? I went to New Jersey in May. Dear Jesus, it was the most amazing time ever. I went to Bamboozle and NYC. It was incredible and I'm sure I would love to live in the East Coast one day. I'm at the same job, sadly. I still greatly admire Carah FAye Charnow, and am SO SO SO excited about Versant. Andy Hull is my hero. I hugged Dan Whitesides again (L). I'm obsessed with watching Scrubs. :) I love juice, ocffee, and Horizon Vanilla milk. :D The End.

He talks in math, buzzes like a fridge.

I'm going to make this a brief update of my life in 2008.

Oh, but yes there is a boy. So there he is from the worst place in Kansas City, almost I forget about Lee's Summit, but there he is and perfect. Yet, I don't feel anything for him, nor does he for me. In fact, I think he hates my guts. It's just like me to hate that though, ya know. Ridiculous. Now, we have the same friends who are trying to set us up. Awkward much? Too much.

Enough of him though. He makes my mind swarm.

I just got back from up North. Gorgeous, gorgeous weather. Amazing, really. I met a cute boy who flirted with me for two days, but ended with that. Special, aren't I? He's a cage fighter, and I'll leave the rest to your imagination. ;) Lemme tell you though, with every road trip I go on I feel more and more drawn to touring. :) I'm so excited.

Carah Faye and Kate Cupcake have definitely taken Jeph Howard's place style wise. Probably for the better considering the two are female and Jepha is in fact not. :) The two are gorgeous, and on top of that short as myself. They make me push to loose weight, which is what I need considering I have gotten off the beat and path and now weigh like 112 pounds! See, this may be nice and low for you, but goddamn I'm only 5 feet tall, it's contagiously disgusting! Needless to say I've gone on a diet. This past year I must have been on several, but for some reason once I reach 110, I just can't loose anymore because I freak out and think "Oh, I'll be fine" Got to stop that. So, we have my mandatory no meat (I hate meat, have I mentioned that? It jsut doesn't like my tongue much, nor my stomach), all right so no meat (only fish; pescetarian). No soy (which makes being vegan really hard. But I'm allergic to it, hince why I can't eat Boca shit anymore. Oh, but oh it makes my tummy despise me). No wheat, no sugar, and lots of tea (DIURETIC!). So it sounds like a lot, but I don't *usually* eat a lot of sugar ('cept lately =/). I'll eat lots of nuts and fruits and veggies. :) Sounds amazin' to me. :D Don't start with me either.

On to brighter things: a new camera. I'm savin' for one. Nikon D-60 10mm lens. :) I already have a job too, once i buy it. My brother's friends Jon and Katie would like me to take pictures of them. :) I'm excited!

Last, but not least: Elexctronica. My new favorite music besides shreddin to metal. BONERZ! I'm weird!

That's all.

Carpe Diem sucks when your still under rule of a monarchy.

So.My life isn't as good as I thought it was going. I thought I had some new friends, but they just let me down worse than my last friend. In fact, miss STD is sounding pretty fucking fantastic at the moment. And it bugs me how they patronize me till they shit gold. It's crazy and I can not wait to get out of here.Not that things will magically be amazing, it's just this place depresses me. Missouri is not the place for someone like me to be. I just don't fit in here.

haha. GO NEIL! :] www.myspace.com/fairmont

Confusion

confusion never felt so amazing.
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